Dealing with cancer and post cancer repercussions can be very hard to deal with, physically and emotionally.
I've just had a recent fallout a few months ago where I learned I had torn tendons in my ankles, posterior tibial tendon dysfunction, arthritis, and could no longer do physical labor because of the poor condition of my feet. Are these cases linked to cancer? I say, who knows, but it's not the medical link that is most appalling, it's the coping with the emotions.
I've completed my chemotherapy and radiation treatments just under two years ago. I've been tryiing to move on with my life by working hard and going to college, but recently I've been having a hard time doing that. I just recently lost a job because of my physical conditions.
The stress of losing certain physical functions, the pain, and the grief of looking back on it all is enough to drive one crazy. I feel like I pick myself up only to fall back down again. It almost drove me crazy.
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Someone very dear to me once told me that it was through the most difficult times of her life that she found something that was so important to her, she used it as a drive to not only carry on, but to excel magnificantly and she has.
My drive is my dreams: To become an engineer, to master playing the piano, and to life a long and healthy, happy life with my girlfriend.
Now that I can see that clearly, I have all the energy to get out into the world and achieve all that is possible and more.
What is your drive?
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